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My diet plan
So over the summer I lost a stone and this is how i did it in 3 weeks.
Breakfast: anything you want- actually anything! Nutella sandwich/cake what ever! Just as long as it is 500-600 calories. Eat at 9 ish. And black coffee
Lunch: around 300 calories of veggies, chicken, eggs, fruit, rice cakes, hummous. Eat this 4 hours after breakfast so you dont feel ravenous by lunch. Black coffee.
Dinner: same as lunch but without the coffee.
Snacks: none
Exercise: i would struggle with a full on hour workout but something light like swimming or walking or yoga.
Drink lots of water
I find this works well because of the large breakfast and that stops me getting hungry or feeling deprived because I know I can eat a pb and J sandwich or a fry up or pancakes and i wont feel bad or gain and it stops me being hungry. In total it is about 1200 calories a day and I’m doing exams now- next to no exercise- so i find this works for me
Update for anyone who cares
Ive started uni and the first few weeks were difficult but its ok now. My depression is better and my anxiety has really calmed down. I had a full on breakdown and had to lie and say I smoked weed so they wouldnt think id been crying but i havent cried since. My eating is ok but the drinking is bad. Sometimes i binge eat but only when im really bored and im eating about 1500 cal per day and going to the gym so i actually feel good. Ive got a proper boyfriend, not the destructive cunt i was seeing before but one who genuinely cares about me. We made it official the day before i started at uni but its going well and im in a good place. He knows about my destructive eating. Ive only been sick once since coming here and once when i went home but in comparison to before when it was every day or so im doing well i think
Update
So i managed my first night alone without a b/p episode so feeling good atm. Found a boy i like and its going good. Im no longer body shy which is great. I dont feel i need to wear a towel or dressing gown etc. Im probably a bit skinnier. My rib cage is more prominent. Ive been out a lot so ive drunk a lot recently which is good as im not home alone and im not eating everything in sight. Im getting 50% of my calories from alcohol atm which is a bad thing but im still getting my 5 a day and my 10 cups of coffee so life is good. Feeling way more confident too. Never knew life could get better after years of depression 😊
23rd november life update
So ive started working but im living alone so purging is becoming a real problem again. Like i have so much power yet no self control. Im losing a bit of weight despite the amount im drinking but i dont feel like its enough. 8 lbs over 6 months isnt great but ive got time until xmas to really get losing. I feel so fat at the moment and am having terrible body image. I want to cry a lot but at work ive got to be smiley and happy and i just hate myself. I want to get to 8 stone 8 lbs which is 14 lbs away but I really want to do this and I want to get the will power to stop purging or binging. Im smoking loads too because I fucking can even though my voice is dead. I just want to be loved but i feel like i need someone elss to do that for me as im trying but really struggling