Recovered bulimic struggling with binge eating disorder. Hit my highest weight 151 lbs lowest weight 127 lbs. I want to get back there just without the vomiting
CW 136 lbs
Not me! model: http://instagram.com/steqhs
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ANYWAYS! fuck im so sun burnt. shoulders, belly, legs. EVEN MY FEET! Watch me peel like crazy ahaha
Ive started uni and the first few weeks were difficult but its ok now. My depression is better and my anxiety has really calmed down. I had a full on breakdown and had to lie and say I smoked weed so they wouldnt think id been crying but i havent cried since. My eating is ok but the drinking is bad. Sometimes i binge eat but only when im really bored and im eating about 1500 cal per day and going to the gym so i actually feel good. Ive got a proper boyfriend, not the destructive cunt i was seeing before but one who genuinely cares about me. We made it official the day before i started at uni but its going well and im in a good place. He knows about my destructive eating. Ive only been sick once since coming here and once when i went home but in comparison to before when it was every day or so im doing well i think
So i managed my first night alone without a b/p episode so feeling good atm. Found a boy i like and its going good. Im no longer body shy which is great. I dont feel i need to wear a towel or dressing gown etc. Im probably a bit skinnier. My rib cage is more prominent. Ive been out a lot so ive drunk a lot recently which is good as im not home alone and im not eating everything in sight. Im getting 50% of my calories from alcohol atm which is a bad thing but im still getting my 5 a day and my 10 cups of coffee so life is good. Feeling way more confident too. Never knew life could get better after years of depression 😊
